Harbingers of Hope

Break

2009-08-10T15:11:00.001-06:00

I will break the
silence within screams.
Shrieks and hisses,
shrill laughter fills
the iron wrought air.
These bars of shadow,
sealing me in my fate.
I stretch my hand to you,
just out of my grasp.
I will break free
and join you in
a sky, so very far.
Yet the shadows,
engulfing my speech,
swallow your memory.
The light, extinguished.
Now only a faint glow
far away in the
ever distant sky.
I will break free,
fly to that beacon.
I will break.

Abstraction

2009-07-17T09:33:00.000-06:00

Luke ran. He could not remember why he was running any more, only that he was. His feet were sore, but even the pain was leaving him.
Long black hair covered Luke's eyes, blinding him temporarily. He reached up with one hand to brush it away and felt something damp and clammy. Suddenly, Luke could feel his heart take off, and the adrenaline rushed into him.
Everything came into focus while his mind caught up. He was running down a dark alley in what he assumed was a business district. Tall buildings surrounded him, trapping Luke in a maze of metal and concrete. He ran ever faster, desperate to escape the walls closing in around him.
But why was he running? Luke still could not remember, but he knew it was imperative that he kept moving.
He came to the end of the alley and emerged onto an empty street. That was odd. He could hear the sounds of the city night, but there was no one in sight. Luke tore across the deserted street and turned right, toward another narrow alley. He flew around the corner and down the alle, eyes darting left and right for signs of life.
A man, slightly taller than Luke, stepped out of a door on his left and tstopped in the middle of the alley, staring directly at him. Luke yelled and raised a handgun he had not noticed he was holding. The man did not move.
Luke could see that the man was smiling now. It was a fiendish grin, and it cihlled him to his bones.
He pulled the trigger and felt the gun kick ever so slightly. Luke could see the man crumple in his mind's eye as he fired, but it was just that. In his mind, merely. Instead, there was a burst of blue fire, and when it was gone, the man still stood, exactly where he had been before.
He pulled up, and the last thing Luke remembered in this life was gasping as he felt cold steel cross his throat.

Mourn the Dead

2009-06-24T12:36:00.001-06:00

What do you seek here
in he vessels of the night?
Why do you come here
to the valley of this fright?
Do you seek my council
of which I cannot give?
Perhaps you should leave here
in order that you may live.
Remember my touch,
remember it well.
For one day I will find you,
and release you from this hell.
Now run my love, run far away.
Do not turn back. Instead,
fly away, my dearest one.
Don't let me mourn the dead.

Creation

2009-04-09T14:17:00.003-06:00

Creation, desperation
What is it that haunts?
My dreams fade
Shadows fall
Overcoming the resplendent
Truth
How?
Is it my sin that fuels
The disquietude
My fear of the night?
My transgressions that create
The fear
Creation, desperation
Understanding the torment
That is the abyssal twilight
Within me, growing
Stronger
Stronger
Weakening my impediment
To the fear that draws me
Toward the tenebrous sea
Deepening my lacerations
Inflicted by
The swords of this reality
Words
The purity of venomous filth
Pouring forth from you
Leave me be
To die in this anguish
Fearing all that is not
Life, salvation
I am death
The final exasperating
Moment
Stealing your faith
Corrupting the truth
The verity of what
I am
No more than
The destitute creation
Of a greater being
Escaping the misery
Of this life
Revealing who I am
The inferno within you
Creation, desperation
My obsession
A headlong dive
Into the atrium that is
The mind
A cerebral complex
A psychical task
Creation, desperation
I am you
I consume you
Force dissipation on you
Destroy all reason and
Replace it with
My burning
Scars of hatred
The end of all things
Ending in cascades
Of constantly burning
Pyres
Creation, desperation

Rise Up

2009-04-08T21:42:00.008-06:00

I lie in wait, desperately chasing the shadows afar. Does anyone know I am here? Would it matter?
Darkness is my friend, my only ally, yet in the darkness, I see only death, my only fear. The loneliness haunts me no more. Love existed not in my previous life. I underestimated the power of the darkness. It consumes me now, engulfs all that surrounds me. I see no end to these troubles. Hatred, hand in hand with the darkness, fills me. I am empty of all else. I hate the light. I hate darkness. I despise the very fact that I have enough feeling left in me to hate. Death is escape, but I fear it. I hate it.
Do you not see? I came here to destroy the darkness. Remove it from existence. I came with good intentions, but I became the very thing that I sought to destroy in the beginning. I am darkness, and I both hate and love myself. Darkness provides comfort, but it forces pain upon an already broken mind. Decadence is not an option, or a possibility. I need no more deterioration. Tell me what you fear. I will dispell it, use it for my own downfall so that you may live on in that sadistic, masochistic world above.
No one listens to my cries of torment. A good samaritan exists no more. The worldly plagues, swallowing all that is good, replacing it with darkness, with me. I long for an escape. The long awaited tunnel of light to bring me out of this despair.
I am fueled by your aggression, your aggravation, your decaying mentality that fears all. But then, is that fear real? I am that fear, but am I real? Or am I just another fictitious fragment of a frayed mind, your crumpled form on the dirty pavement?
You speak, cry out for help. And I will ignore those cries, as you have so ignorantly and willingly disregarded my suffering.
I will rise up, take your place. A parasitic monster, taking over everything that is you. Possession will only be the beginning. Your pain will be a pinprick in the midst of a thousand gunshot wounds. My wounds, inflicted by those above me. Your arrogance will be your death. You will scream for mercy, begging for your pitiful, wretched lives, and I will refuse, wishing only that you suffer through a fraction of what exists inside me. Unending pain.
You will die, and I will rule over you, your master for ages to come. An eon shall pass, everything you sought after will be decimated in my reign, and your lives will be meaningless in my sight.
Perhaps I will let you live. Most likely you will die. Yes. You shall die.

This Flame

2009-04-05T20:03:00.002-06:00

Plagued by darkness
I cry out in
Pleasant pain
I feel it
But I care not
For even in pain
You bring me
Joy
With your presence
Terror is here
It shakes at the sight of
The light inside me
Burning bright
A flame
Sacred love
This flame will never die
My love

Joy

2009-03-28T17:06:00.003-06:00

Joy is my desire
Creating fearful wonder
Perfect unity
Sacred fellowship
A banner of
Coexistence
Joy of a child
Harmony and balance
Seeking a father
A mother
Needing no more
Than love
My joy
Is her love
Unending, unfailing
Love
Striking a chord
Harmony
Joy

Tears

2009-03-28T17:04:00.002-06:00

Tears
Why do they hide?
Your face, streaked
Misery
When you see me
Smiling warmly
A loving flame
You bury your face
In my chest
My heart cries out
Shed your tears
No more
I wrap you in my arms
Protect you from
The shaded night
Shed your tears no more

Grace

2009-03-27T08:01:00.002-06:00

All doubt removed
The truth revealed
Love is
Truth
Beauty
Grace is
Bestowed upon me
In times of
Disbelief
Pain
In times of sorrow
She rescues
She protects
This is love
Her love
The beauty that is
Grace

Love

2009-03-24T19:00:00.010-06:00

Her face haunts me
an unending nightmare
a waking fear
a living death to my soul
quakes in horror
she feels no pain
dying to live in
secrecy, suffering
pushing her love in
the abyssal night
until there is no more
pain
her cruelty is at an
end my suffering
let me inhale the
scent of death
won't you hear my cries
and die with your wretched
selflessness
this love is dead
all compassion lost in
hatred glows within me now
a raging fire, consuming all who
stand in my path and
die
leave this unfulfilling
forsaken world and take your place
next to me
this is where you
die, and come to me
live in peace with the knowledge
of who I am
love

Separation

2009-03-22T15:46:00.006-06:00

The pain her absence brings me is
Unbearable
Unshakable
Tormenting. my very soul
(BLEEDS)
In separation.
Loneliness is
Terror,
A hole. in my
Heart
Blackness replaces her. memories
Dark as light?
Life ends.
Death is my only
Release?
The horror of separation!
From her, is
The truth of my lies.
Shall truth be the red death?
What! Lies beyond that portal.
Is it. Truth?
Truth exists? not in my world.
Revenge! is escape.
Punishment, death!
Separation, finality?
DEATH!

Fear

2009-03-21T16:42:00.001-06:00

The rain rolls down the window like the tears on my face. My fear dissipates in silent hatred. This is the end, yet it can only be the beginning of my slow, cruel death. There will be no end to the grief that now consumes me, decimates me, drives me to the brink of this eternal peril, my death. Can there be no relief? Is she lost forever to the storms of this life? Is this our end, which I refuse to accept as truth, or merely a self-evident lie?